Monthly Archives: July 2013

Enough!!

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There are many people in this world who can be defined as-

Jack of all trades, master of none.

Well, I am not one of them.

Sadly, I am also not amongst the other kind of people: master of one or more trades.
What I can say about myself is that I’m  ‘Jill of not a single trade,  Mistress of none’ .

At this point in my life, I feel I’ve had ENOUGH of being like this.
I’ve been average all my life. It’s high time now.. I want to do away with “average” now!!
I’m so Done with this tag! I’ve even started feeling aversive of the word ‘average’.

I want to be excellently adept at something.. I don’t know what.. But something..Anything!! So that when I’m asked about my specialty or the stuff I’m good at, I have something to say! I don’t just want to be ‘above average’ or ‘good’. I want more. I want to excellent! That’s all.

Also, my deepest wish is to become an all-rounder. Not in the ‘Jack of all trades’ sense. But exceptionally good in multiple fields. Versatility is what I yearn for!
It’s not a utopian phenomenon. Infact, there are a lot of people who are scholars AND are very good at singing, writing, dancing, cooking as well.
I want to be regarded as multi-talented, multi-faceted, an all-rounder!!
There’s no fun in being average, and remaining average all through one’s lifespan. Life is about exploring one’s farthest limits. Life is about improving. No one wants to remain stagnant.. I want to move away and far beyond average-ness.
Can’t bear being ‘just average’ anymore!!

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It’s official: I am a GRADUATE!

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After an excruciatingly long wait, we,  University of Delhi students,  finally got to know about our results!  Today,  i.e, 22nd July 2013, D.U authorities finally decided to disclose our oh-so-anticipated results!
My classmates were going bonkers waiting for these results.. But frankly speaking, I had zero interest in knowing my result..my denouement. So today when I got to know that finally our examination results have been declared on D.U’s website, my heartrate didn’t increase, I didn’t even feel one percent of anxiety and apprehension. That is SO unusual..! Too apathetic!
The reason why I wasn’t the least bit interested in someone else’s evaluation and assessment of my responses ( in other words exam “Result”) because I knew how much I would score. My percentage remained sort of constant in the first and sophomore year: 55-56%. I was so disheartened and discouraged after the second year that I chucked any hope. Thus, when I saw my final result today, I calmly and passively stared into my cellphone’s screen. After 5 long minutes I decided to interpret it. The website displayed ” 279 out of 1200- pass – II division” that’s about 56.58%. That means I scored EXACTLY how much I was expecting. Expecting, Not hoping though! After numerous complex sequences and ups and downs of three years, I could score a mere 56.58% aggregate! That’s 3.42% less than the minimum requirement for First division..! 😦 My mental state moved from apathy to disappointment.

Anyway, the state of disappointment moved to teeny-tiny bit of blissfulness when I calculated my percentage of the third(final) year exams only. And to my utter surprise, my percentage came out to be 62.28% ..!! That’s 2.28% more inside the bracket of the glorious FIRST division! 😀 This was totally unexpected! Although I never blame distractions and bad circumstances for my poor performances; I’m glad after going through ups and SO MANY downs,  I somehow managed to score good in the finals! 😀 This thin silver lining made my day!
The university’s topper secured 77% ..that means I scored just about 15 % less than the whole university’s topper!! Wow..that’s so cool..! Haha.
I’ve decided to bask in this little blissful glory till I realize that the final year exam’s score doesn’t matter. It’s the aggregate scores that matters actually.
Hmmm…..
Signing off as officially a GRADUATE today!
Adios!

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Today I pray : WishList of July 2013

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Though I don’t do this often, but today I simply felt like indulging into something like praying.
After way too many days of pointless pondering and procrastination, I finally took the decision and joined a coaching institute (Jamboree, Jaipur) for GRE. That is what my parents wanted me to do as well. So,  today was my first class. And it felt so good! It’s not like I’m taking coaching for GRE for the first time. Infact, I took a proper 4 month-long coaching for T.I.M.E ( very popular Indian institute) while I was in Delhi. However, I feel very disappointed to admit that it was almost a waste! I couldn’t manage studying GRE and college syllabus simultaneously. I merely attended the classes every week, and didn’t selfstudy ir revise or practice. Totally my fault! :-/   I feel bad for wasting my father’s money.

Nevertheless, today I start again. Finally… With my Ultimate goal of Achieving a mindblowingly rocking GRE score this year.
Thus, I want to pray today.

God , today I pray that you give me enough strength,perseverance and courage to do hardwork and prepare for GRE.

Today I pray to you , please make me remain  focused , driven and motivated to achieve my goals and make my parents proud. So that I chuck my bad habit of procrastination. So that I stop being ridiculously and shamelessly lazy.

I pray to you to make the unnecessary distractions go away from my path to success. I wish my surroundings to be trouble-free and distraction-less.

I pray to you to help in making me more confident, humble, amiable and have a sense of higher self-esteem.

I pray to you,  from the core of my heart to eliminate all the negativity from my life. I need to indulge in positive thinking more than ever in my life.

Today… I stand before you and pray,  so you help me dare to dream big!!

With you by my side, I hope to sail smoothly through this extremely crucial time. Please help me make my dreams come true!
   Have thy mercy on me.

Also, I would like this opportunity to Thank you for all that you’ve already given me! I feel blessed and Lucky. I’m filled with immense gratitude. Thank you! Forgive me for my wrong doings.

What is God?
He is nothing but my strongest Faith, my dearest friend, my hope, my guide, and my savior.

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